[voice test]
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Billy didn't know how to name the feeling he had when Frank married Maria. He was happy for his friend, for both of them. He did everything a best man was supposed to do, and then some, because he would be damned if Frank didn't have a decent wedding, even if it was a rush job. Because Maria was pregnant. But Frank was happy and that was what mattered.
But something did shift in him as he watched his friend take his vows. No one sticks around. Maybe that wasn't totally fair - Frank was his brother, they were Marines, and they would share things that no one else did, and that was okay. He didn't need anything else from Frank. He didn't deserve anything else.
They had some leave before their first deployment, which was how Frank managed to get married at all. And after Frank resurfaced from his brief honeymoon, Billy was happy to meet him for drinks.
But something did shift in him as he watched his friend take his vows. No one sticks around. Maybe that wasn't totally fair - Frank was his brother, they were Marines, and they would share things that no one else did, and that was okay. He didn't need anything else from Frank. He didn't deserve anything else.
They had some leave before their first deployment, which was how Frank managed to get married at all. And after Frank resurfaced from his brief honeymoon, Billy was happy to meet him for drinks.
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Date: 2018-07-16 04:53 am (UTC)He clapped a hand on Billy's shoulder, squeezed gently, lingered. It was an obvious touch, with a single swipe of his thumb on the skin just above Billy's collar.
"We just drinking here tonight?" he asked. He finished off his first drink in a rush, and got a second one to match Billy's second.
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Date: 2018-07-16 02:02 pm (UTC)Then Frank's thumb brushed his neck. He was gonna need another fucking drink.
"We can go wherever you want, man." Billy wasn't stuck on the idea of staying in one bar until they fell down.
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Date: 2018-07-16 04:27 pm (UTC)"Suppose we'll have to see where the night takes us, huh?" He sipped his new drink, but that sip became sort of a gulp with the nerves. "I know a couple decent places up near Greenwich."
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Date: 2018-07-17 12:07 am (UTC)He grinned and nursed his second drink, but fuck, maybe he was going to need an IV drip of alcohol to get him through tonight. Frank was-- Billy had no idea. Maybe it was all in his head. It had to be. Frank was married now. Everything was different.
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Date: 2018-07-17 12:14 am (UTC)But maybe that'd come up at some point, maybe they'd talk about all sorts of shit. They were not the kind of guys that talked about their histories very much, about the boys they'd been before they signed up. But Frank thought he could.
"It's up to you," he said. "The drinks are cheap enough here."
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Date: 2018-07-17 01:26 am (UTC)"Next round is on you, my man."
Billy slid off his bar stool and stretched a little. Summer in New York had him down to a t-shirt and jeans. He still made it look good.
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Date: 2018-07-17 02:15 am (UTC)Then he nodded, and nudged Billy along with him. The liquor wasn't hitting yet--probably because unlike the bar in North Carolina, those weren't sneaky triples.
They hit the pavement, and Frank easily navigated them to the Blue Line. As they loaded onto the train, he crowded in maybe unnecessarily close to Billy, catching a belt loop with one finger as the whole train swayed into motion.
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Date: 2018-07-17 02:41 am (UTC)Fuck. Fuck.
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Date: 2018-07-17 02:49 am (UTC)His thumb nudged up under the edge of Billy's t-shirt. "How're those drinks treating you, Bill?"
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Date: 2018-07-17 02:55 am (UTC)"I'm alright." He wet his lips. Frank was close and Billy was forgetting how to breathe. "What's going on, Frankie?"
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Date: 2018-07-17 03:07 am (UTC)He kept up that slow, gentle stroke of his thumb. "What're you worried about, Bill?"
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Date: 2018-07-17 03:28 am (UTC)"What'm I worried about? You're married, Frank. You remember that part where I was your best man?"
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Date: 2018-07-17 03:33 am (UTC)Discretely, taking a glance at the board reading the next stop, Frank shifted his hand a little bit from Billy's hip to brush against the front of his jeans.
"She knows where I'm at," he said softly. "And where I'm at is right here. Okay? So we can keep drinking a while, if you want. If that helps."
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Date: 2018-07-17 03:42 am (UTC)Maria knew about them, he knew that, but things were supposed to change when someone got married, right? Youthful indiscretions were left behind for-- for whatever came next.
Billy was a youthful indiscretion.
But Frank was here, and Maria knew, still. He lifted his head, looked at Frank as he stayed close. "Tell me what you want, Frankie."
Even as he said it, tucked his fingers into the top of Frank's pants, holding onto him to keep their hips close.
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Date: 2018-07-17 03:51 am (UTC)"I want you," he said softly.
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Date: 2018-07-17 03:55 am (UTC)"Wanna go back to my place?"
Because they could go and drink, or they could hang out in the village, but-- but he didn't want to miss anything in throbbing music or too much liquor. He had booze at home.
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Date: 2018-07-17 04:01 am (UTC)"Yeah, let's go back to your place," he said softly, and sort of breathed a laugh. Whatever liquor there had been in those two drinks was starting to tangle in him, and he felt easy and effusive.
His nose nudged against Billy's. His voice was low and gravelly. "Take me back and fuck me, okay?"
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Date: 2018-07-17 04:13 am (UTC)"We gotta change trains," he said with a weak laugh. "Goddamn, man. You had to do all this hot shit before even saying it? Fuck."
He bumped his head against Frank's, like they'd done so many fucking times before. Then he tipped his head, just right, and caught Frank in a kiss.
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Date: 2018-07-17 04:19 am (UTC)He shifted his hands and squeezed Billy close, scraped a kiss in response to Billy's.
"Let's change trains then, man," he said into the space barely between their mouths. It was hard to not fall all over himself. "Or get a cab."
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Date: 2018-07-17 08:26 pm (UTC)He nudged Frank but stayed close to him, and he tried to listen for the next station. He was pretty sure it was one they could change lines at without a problem.
He leaned in for another kiss, because he wanted one and because he'd been thinking of how it would feel for way too fucking long, and now he finally knew, and he wanted more.
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Date: 2018-07-17 08:35 pm (UTC)Behind him, he heard girlish giggling. He ignored it in favor of the warmth of Billy's body against his, close and confident and easy to get wrapped up in.
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Date: 2018-07-17 08:43 pm (UTC)He didn't fucking care who saw.
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Date: 2018-07-17 08:51 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-07-17 08:55 pm (UTC)"C'mon."
Changing trains was easy, at least, and they didn't have to wait long on the platform to do it. The next car they rode in was blissfully less crowded, and it wasn't hard to drag Frank into a more secluded set of seats. If he had to stand, he was going to make an idiot of himself.
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Date: 2018-07-17 09:00 pm (UTC)He didn't actually know where Billy was staying at the moment. But he was about to find out, and that was exciting all on its own.
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